Hey babe, I love you. You had another good day babe. You are so strong. You make me proud. We started off with diaper time and rounds this morning.I really enjoy both. Everything was good from the drs. You had Dr Vash again today. I like that guy. You weighed in a 1 lb even today, they say it is normal to lose a little weight, so no worries. We are learning a lot about your care everyday, it is interesting. They gave you someone else’s blood today. I think that’s a first. Someone else who loved you and hasn’t met you. Lots of ways to love people baby. Don’t forget that. We had a moment to talk to Dr Vash after rounds and he explained more. I tried to ask him about your chances of coming home someday and he quickly stopped me and said no. “Don’t do that. No one else’s survival or not has anything to do with yours. You aren’t a statistic. You are your own baby. They will do everything and look to do anything they can to help, but this is between you and God. You are in God’s hands.” He warned us against reading too much about other babies or statistics and to just enjoy our time. He said there will be ups and downs, but every day you are with us is a good day. The staff will handle your medical care and we are your parents. That’s our role, to love you. I told your mom how much I like your Dr. and she made me promise not to hug him, I will try, no promises. Your mom and I handle stress in different ways. It’s been fun. We are as close as ever. We’ve spent virtually every moment together for 10 days and grown stronger everyday. She is a great mom I can’t wait for you to know her better.
You’ve had this great nurse a lot named Alysa, probably the wrong spelling. She and the whole staff around here love you too. You can see it on their faces. They love you everyday. You are surrounded by love. One of the nurses told us today about sniffies. These are little pieces of soft cloth, maybe 4 in x 4 in. Mom and I can take them and keep them on us near our skin and we drop them off and put them in your bed with you. You smell them and get to know us and it helps you relax. These are my favorite. I am wearing one now on my neck. Its another way for us to care for you. They make us happy. I’ve been showering more regularly out of consideration for you. Your welcome. It’s probably better for everyone. You got to meet Papa Ken today. He came with Nana. They love you and prayed for you in your room. My crew at the fire station came by to visit with me. I have a lot of support from work. It helps. Today was a good day with you. I think mom may get discharged from the hospital tomorrow. She is walking much better. We both look forward to being in our bed at home. It is a little scary for us to not be in the same building as you for the first time, but it is a step we have to take. We both love you. You make us both proud.
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