Day 40, 3-15-17; Breathe Easy Beautiful

Hello Baby, you had another great day today. I had to work and Mommy was still fighting her cold. So I came to rounds in the morning then went to work. At rounds, the doctors stated they thought you were ready for steroids and were hoping to ween you aggressively down on your vent and hopefully take the tube out of your lungs and switch you to a new vent. The p lan was to push and see what you could handle and hopefully in the next few days switch over vents. Well they started with steroids and immediately started weaning. I headed to work and expected to not miss much, with hopes of spending lots of time with you starting tomorrow after my shift. I wanted to be there when they  extubated you, so I could hear you. With the tube in your lungs going through your vocal cords, you can’t make noise besides the occasional fart.  I haven’t ever heard you make a peep. I really looked forward to hearing you squeak and try to cry. Well Nana came to visit you in the early evening and they had just switched you over. I am pleased you had family there with you.

When Mommy heard the news, she cleaned up all the germs and headed that way. She held back from touching you and had to wear a mask, but she got to hear you for the first time. I considered leaving work, but decided to stick it out and come see you in the morning.

The other really cool thing about not having a tube in your mouth is that your face isn’t all covered up with tape holding your tube. So we all got to see more of your beautiful face. Mommy told me she thinks you look like me. I like to hear it. It makes me proud, but for your benefit let’s hope as you age you resemble your mother more and more.

I was super excited to head to the hospital in the morning. When I arrived I shot right in past the nurses to see you. You looked as beautiful as possible. I was so happy to see more of your face.  I was so amazed, I forgot anything about the noises, when all of a sudden you did this little hiccup squeak thing and I was shocked. It took my breath away, literally I was speechless. I held my heart and probably my breath awaiting the next peep,  you had my full attention. There it was, another little coo or cheep or something. I don’t know what to call it other awesome. I loved it.

You are so big and overcoming so many obstacles and achieving new milestones so quickly. You make us so proud and we love you so much.